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Went out for a very long walk - something between a walk and a hike, really - down to Tower Beach. I got rather thoroughly soaked, as it was raining, as well as being high tide, which means the beach doesn't quite exist in some spots, forcing me to dash through the surf and get my sneakers totally dripping wet.

But it was just want I needed - to step away from the internet, from school, from dorm stuff, from the rest of humanity, and to just chill. The combination of rain and high tide meant it was just me, the waves, and the seagulls, which was perfect.

So. Things are better now. Not totally perfect and wonderful, but life rarely is. I've been a right bitch to various people this week, and I'm sorry. I can't promise it won't happen again, but I promise I'll try.

And now, hot chocolate and video games are in order.

I want to cosplay default RE4 Leon (have for a while, actually), but I've been going 'augh, so expensive' about it. I've also been contemplating doing STARS!Wesker, instead. And then I realized that half their gear? The same XD; I'll have to whip out the RE Archives book and take a good look, but I might be able to do two costumes for the price of one, w00t.

Yes, I haven't forgotten about it. Party Friday was low-key, but nice - about half the people who said they were coming didn't, so there were ten of us. Managed to avoid any of the infamous dares by rocking at the earlier games, including carving the cutest pumpkin ever - a Bitey pumpkin! Bitey is Liz and company's cat, who is a big orange tabby who, well, bites everything. And I really do mean everything. I also discovered what being slighty tipsy is like, and how much it takes to get me there - five delicious mixed drinks (Liz = the drink-master) and one shot. I also learned that Matt has a surprisingly high alcohol tolerance for a skinny half-Asian kid.

Saturday and Sunday were a bit more low-key - went to the movies with Liz, Marina, and Elisha on Saturday. We saw Marie Antoinette, which was pretty, but really, really boring. Less that two hours long, but it felt like waaaay more. We also watched some Gankutsuou, which I totally need to see more of, and then went and hung out at Tim Horton's at one in the morning 'cause it was the only thing open and we didn't want to wake Brooke up.

Coming home Sunday, the ferry was running an hour and a half late. Which gave me lots of time to watch more Supernatural, but also meant I had to stand outside in the cold (it's been near-freezing all week) for half an hour waiting for the bus to come.

I've got photos from the party uploaded to my computer - not gonna post them, but if you want 'em, poke me on AIM or MSN.

Someone needs to either talk me into or out of apping for Resolution Remix - I'm waffling horribly. I've got Mikhail, who I'm unfortunately feeling kind of 'meh' about, but I started thinking this morning, and I could adapt Mira pretty easily for LA, and I have an idea for a dreamseer, but those spots may all be gone already. Argh.

And Isamu, go be small and bitter somewhere that isn't the back of my head. I'm not writing you right now.

EDIT: After looking through the lists...all the places I'd be interested in apping a dreamseer already have lots of potential ones that are likely far better than anything I could come up with, there's already a Mikhail and I'm rather attached to the name. Sooo...Mira or nothing, I guess.

Getting upset over stupid, stupid things once again. I wish I didn't set standards for myself I can't actually achieve.

I think I'm going to watch more Supernatural. And study for my goddamn Bio midterm.

I just put my finger on one of the things that's been bugging me over the last couple of days, and I poke through Y-con photos - by a certain standard, I'm not a very good cosplayer. Oh, sure, the costumes are beautiful. I am, dare a I say it, excellent at craftsmanship. But the costumes may as well be on a dressform for how they look on me. The one and only character I cosplay that I actually look like the character as is Tatsumi - the rest of the time it just looks like me, wearing someone else's clothing.

I look through the photos and I hate how I look in them - I probably have close to two hundred photos of the various Seishirou outfits I've done, and I don't like any of them. And the same is true for Subaru, and Ada, and Leon. It's so frustrating, because I like the characters, I like making costumes, but I tend to live by the standard of 'if you can't do it well, why bother doing it at all' and there isn't really much I can do to make it any better - yeah, I could maybe improve my make-up skills some, but there's only so much even that can do.

So, I was trying to fix my Gallery install, as it was giving me issues uploading files yesterday. Unfortunately, as I am not any good with PHP or Perl, I managed to fry it totally. Non-functioning totally. Which means re-installing it and importing everything again once my server decides to recognize that I'm not .01 MB over my hosting space - I was trying to restore some very large back-ups, and I think having the restored copy and the back-up is what shot me over, but half of that's gone now. Luckily all the image folders are still there and sorted, although I might be too much of a lazy bitch to re-tag all the photos, as I think that data's been lost. But images will be unavalible until that gets ironed out.

Home from the con, which was fun. Report and photos tomorrow (the report is two-thirds done already, so it really will be up tomorrow and not in weeks), but for now, I think I may watch another episode of Supernatural, unpack some, and then crash, because this week is going to be hellishly busy.

And Christ, do you people post a lot.

Some good news! My sister in science (the cell bio nerd from the next house over) and I have managed to get places volunteering in the lab of the really cool prof we talked to at the BioSoc info session. It doesn't start until the end of November, as he's got a third-year class he's supervising in there now, but win! And you know you're a Microbi geek when you know the mortality rates for Ebola and Marburg off the top of your head (although I think I may have mixed up the Sudan and Zaire varieties of Ebola).

And not going to the movie tonight was a good idea - I'm dead-tired today, as I woke up several times from rather nasty nightmares last night. And no, not the usually pre-con bad dreams of rushing to finish costumes, or forgetting costumes, or any of that - genuine nightmares. Although totally was a dead kind of day in general, it seemed. Lots of people were really spaced out in Chem lab, more so than usual.

Now - laundry, packing, and making a shopping list for tomorrow. Usual pre-con post sometime late tonight, likely, for the benefit of those leaving tomorrow.

What I asked my mom to mail me:
-my winter coat
-my platform boots
-my bottle of blue hair dye

What I got:
-coat and boots for Seph
-bottle of conditioning toner

Argh. At least she remembered my acne meds. Now, lunch, some VNV Nation, and that chem lab report.