2012-09-25 05:29 pm

Web Design/Freelancing

So, this is kind of... seeking mentorship? Advice? Feedback? I'm not even entirely sure what. Basically doing styles work for Dreamwidth has rekindled my enjoyment of doing design work, which kind of got buried under university for a number of years there. And I've been having a hell of a time finding any kind of job, and know already I don't mind working to spec (a few of my DW designs have been like that, actually) or working with other people's code. I also know I'm good at fluid design and CSS.

The problem is that I have no sense of how 'good' my work is. I mean, I've been doing this for over a decade, but most of the old stuff is dreadfully mired in fandom trends popular in the mid-2000s. I'm also not a graphic designer - I will spare you all the second-hand embarassment of my drawing attempts at the moment, but suffice to say original art past simple vector designs are right out. And, well, I also have no idea how to start this.

Help?
2012-08-29 10:29 pm

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So a friend (hi Yana) reminded me that oh, I need to post more. Which is true, I've mostly been microblogging because 1) I keep my microblog locked, 2) nobody here cares about RP shenanigans, and 3) also nobody cares about my spammy, spammy thoughts on fandom (I make running-commentary plurks when reading stuff). So in news people might actually care about:

-Frustrating job laid me off, which effectively resolved my dilemma if I should quit and search harder for something that wasn't pure physical labor at insane overtime.
-I have been swimming in a sea of CSS, mostly working on things for Dreamwidth instead of, oh, any of my own sites. But it's like slacking off productively!
-I have failed utterly at working on learning any other coding language (aside from a bit of S2 and that doesn't count)
-I have pretty much managed to keep to my cleaning goal.
-I'm considering trying to save up for a new car because 1) the crazy lady next door keeps threatening to have mine towed and 2) some jackass smashed one of my windows in and 3) the car is sixteen years old and showing it's age.
-Started reading Marvel comics. If I disappear, I've fallen too deep into the abyss. Don't follow me.

I'm also starting to realize I need to upgrade my personal blog - it's still running Moveable Type 4.1 which is... years old. And uses tables for layout, and now that I look, has no wide content handler. And the layout is a little embarassingly old-school in light of my DW stuff. Options are most likely either upgrading MT which has the pro of a templating language I know and the con of being owned by Six Apart who I'm not fond off after how they handled LJ, or switching to Wordpress. I don't know if the Wordpress templating system has gotten less complex since I first looked at in like 2005, but I've become a better coder, and it does seem to be the blogging software these days. Thoughts, anyone?
2012-08-15 02:36 pm

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...will be here later :)
2012-08-15 02:35 pm

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CHARACTER INFO
CHARACTER NAME: Souji Okita
SERIES: Peacemaker Kurogane

PERSONALITY: The first impression one gets of Souji tends to be highly dependant on the context one meets him in. He has two ‘faces’, so to speak. Off duty, he is cheerful, friendly, and sometimes downright childish. He’s quick to warm up to people, loves playing with kids, and is practically always smiling. He can also be a bit mischievous, being capable of telling outrageous stories with a perfectly straight face, and sometimes inclined to tease people to see if he can get a rise out of them.

In a fight, however, he is utterly ruthless. At one point he describes himself as being ‘a child of a demon’, and it shows. The smile is there still, but it’s sharp, nasty now - the sort of smile that says someone else is in a lot of trouble. Despite the ruthlessness, he’s not needlessly cruel - it is simply that there is a job to be done, and that he does it very, very well.

He’s capable of switching between these different aspects of his personality almost instantly - as he does in his conversation with Ryoma in PMK volume 3. One moment, the two are happily joking with each other, a happy grin on Souji’s face - and seconds later, he’s got his blade drawn on Ryoma, all traces of humor totally gone. He is a good person at heart - as shown by his frequent kindness to others - but he is very much capable of putting aside his feelings when it is required of him.

BACKGROUND:
At the beginning of Shinsengumi Imon Peacemaker (the first series, to which Peacemaker Kurogane forms the second half), Souji is the one to bring Tetsu, the protagonist of the series, to Shinsengumi HQ after spotting him sitting outside. He petitions Kondou, the commander of the Shinsengumi, to let him have a chance to prove himself, and then wishes Tetsu luck when Tetsu says he’ll take down the great Souji Okita and excuses himself. He returns a few minutes later, changed for fighting, and introduces himself formally. As promised, he then spars against Tetsu - Tetsu forces him to get actually get serious, at which point he breaks Tetsu’s boku, and scares him with the look in his eyes - it reminds Tetsu of the man who killed his father. Not long after, as Tetsu is contemplating what he thinks are the full implications of being Shinsengumi are, he is also the one to give Tetsu directions as to where to hide to watch Hijikata take on a ronin ambush - without forewarning him as to what he’d see.

Over the course of the early part of the series, he’s shown to spend a great deal of his free time with Hijikata - not quite performing servants’ jobs for him, as being Toushizou’s page is firmly Tetsu’s job, but chiding him, giving him shoulder rubs, joking with him, and the like. He also gets teased a fair bit by the other captains for his lack of manliness, something which he does not seem to mind overly much.

When he, Shinpachi, and Sanosuke are out, off-duty, they run across Tetsu facing down a number of armed ronin in defense of a little girl. Souji is unarmed - when asked earlier as to why, he replies ‘It gets in the way of tag and things’ - but after Tetsu shouts out his name in warning, he is forced to kill his opponent, using the man’s own sword against him.

Afterwards, Tetsu gets upset with Souji, pointing out that it was not necessary to kill the man, at which point Souji reiterates a point made earlier - that because of the nature of his job, he is ‘a demon’s child’. He then shows Tetsu the Shinsengumi code, as set down by Hijikata, and explains that by following the strictures of the Shinsengumi, one must also follow the code of the samurai, and that if you face an opponent with swords drawn, either you or your opponent must die. To do otherwise is dishonorable, and the punishment for it is ritual suicide. The incident emphasises yet again the shift in Souji’s emotional response when compared to ‘average ‘ people.

Not long after this exchange, Tetsu asks Souji to be his training partner, despite knowing Souji’s skills and his difficulty in holding back. As their match grows more heated, Tetsu demands to know Souji’s reasons for taking up the sword, at which point Souji stops the matching, saying that his reason cannot be Tetsu’s as well, and that all he can offer the boy is a partner for his training.

When Yamanami and his subordinates return to HQ, Souji acts in some ways as a mediator between the two vice-commanders. He chats amicably with Yamanami early in the morning when they first arrive, and then, later, when the meeting between Yamanami and Hijikata grows sour, Souji drags Hijikata off on the pretense of grocery shopping to keep things from growing too heated. While they are out walking, the subject of Tetsu comes up, and Hijikata remains adamant that Tetsu should remain a page and not take up the sword and full duties of the Shinsengumi. Souji’s response to this is to point out he was far younger when he first joined, and then says ‘Ah. That’s what this is about. You don’t want another me, do you?’ before picking up his walking pace and moving ahead of Hijikata.

After Tetsu’s trip to Shimabara, Souji encounters Tatsu worrying about his younger brother. He attempts to reason with Tatsu, pointing out that he can’t coddle Tetsu forever. The two end up debating how easy it is to heal wounds of the heart, a question they don’t really come to a conclusion on. There’s also a brief moment of foreshadowing as Souji begins to cough violently, and then immediately blames it on choking on some tea when Tatsu asks what’s wrong.

After Ayumu’s death at the hands of Choushou ronin, Souji is the one to follow Hijikata out of the room rites are being held in, to try to get Hijikata’s attention through the taller man’s anger and ranting. His message is simple - It’s not your fault. When the Shinsengumi go to raid Masuya’s store and the ronin headquarters underneath, Souji is one of the captains leading the attack, all of his usual cheerfulness gone. He gives the order to strike down any who attempt to leave the estate or who resist arrest, but hangs back from the main action. When one of his men asks him why, as he’s usually on the front lines, he replies that he would like to let Yamazaki handle this his own way - as it was his sister who was murdered.

In the aftermath of the raid and Tetsu’s confrontation with Yoshida, the man who killed his parents, the question of how long it takes to heal wounds of the heart comes up once again between Souji and Tatsu. Souji expresses surprise at just how damaged Tetsu is, emotionally, and with the revelation that the younger boy has barely changed, physically or emotionally since his parents’ death, Souji turns contemplative, saying to himself ‘For me...how many years has it been?’ - another small moment highlighting his somewhat troubled past.

During the Shinsengumi attack on the Ikedaya inn - known afterwards simply as the ‘Ikedaya incident’ - Souji is again one of the leaders following right behind Commander Kondou, as befits one of the squad captains. His expression is serious. After cutting down many of the Choushou ronin, Souji comes face to face with their leader, Yoshida. He managed to knock the taller man down, but just as he’s about to make the finishing blow, Yoshida kicks him in the stomach, knocking him backwards. The fight continues, back and forth, but after one particularly nasty kick in the ribs, Souji begins coughing violently, bringing up fresh blood onto his hands. Yoshida takes the opportunity to knock him down again, stepping on his chest hard enough to crack his armor, as Souji struggles, coughing.

He pulls himself upright as Tetsu faces off against Yoshida, and tells Shinpachi and Kondou not to interfere in their fight, giving a list of tactical reasons why Yoshida cannot possibly win. When the battle gets close, however, Souji is the one to step in and kill Yoshida himself, telling Tetsu that his sword is for protecting, not for killing. He then comforts Tetsu, his earlier seriousness gone. When Hijikata and his reinforcements arrive, Kondou sends Hijikata to the back room where Souji is sitting, still coughing harshly. Hijikata sees the blood on him immediately worries, though Souji reassures him that he’s not sick, the blood isn’t his - though Hijikata insists on fixing him medicine for the cough anyway. As they walk back to headquarters in the aftermath, Souji quietly tells Hijikata not to worry - that Tetsu is strong, and won’t end up like he did.

In the aftermath of the Ikedaya incident, we first see Souji again in a somewhat more light-hearted moment, trying to keep Tetsu quiet while Yamazaki impersonates him for some dignitaries. He clearly finds the situation hilarious, struggling to keep himself quiet instead of bursting out laughing.

We are then treated two different encounters that illustrate just how rapidly Souji’s moods can shift. Tetsu finds him facing down a mysterious man - later identified by Shinpachi as Saitou Hajime, captain of third squad - completely serious and intent two kill. They exchange a quick series of blows, the mood tense - and then abruptly, Hajime comments on Souji’s choice of underwear, having caught a glimpse during a stance shift, and the two erupt in laughter, the fight suddenly over. A similar incident occurs in reverse when a strange man infiltrates HQ and pops out of the bushes. He and Souji exchange joking and cheerful grins before Souji suddenly draws his sword, expression serious, as the man is a wanted criminal, and Souji is on duty.

At one point, on an off-duty day, there is a rather lighthearted moment when Souji steals Hijikata’s private book of haikus he’s written - all of which are terrible - and shows it to Tetsu. As soon as Hijikata realizes it’s gone, he immediately pawns it off on Tetsu and absconds before Hijikata can catch him. At the end of the ensuing chase, he gives Hijikata back ‘his’ book - only for Hijikata to discover that the book he was given back was full of doodles Souji had done of his pet pig instead.

As fall shifts into winter life continues on in Shinsengumi headquarters - while there is intrigue brewing with the newest batch of recruits and their leader, there are no major battles. We find Souji playing with children on the grounds near HQ, helping them to build a snowman. He gives them his old, full name - Soujiro - knowing that ‘Souji Okita’ has a reputation as a killer, not as someone who plays with children. He talks with Yamanami briefly, who comments that when they first met, Souji was not much older than those children - but, as Souji points out, he was far less innocent.

Not long after, when Yamanami defects, leaving the Shinsengumi abruptly and without notice, it is Souji who volunteers to go fetch him back, in deference to their long friendship. When he finally finds the older man, Yamanami suspects it to be a ploy of Hijikata’s - knowing he could never draw his sword on Souji. Souji insists there was no order, that he came of his own accord, and attempts to plead with Yamanami, asking him to make apologies so they can find a reason to spare his life, as the Shinsengumi, Hijikata especially, still need him. Once they arrive back at headquarters, heated debate ensues between the vice commanders and commander, while Souji watches in silence. Yamanami draws his ‘blade’ on Hijikata, who immediately reacts with combat reflexes and cuts him down - only to realize that the sword is bamboo. With Yamanami bleeding out, Commander Kondou orders Souji to be Yamanami’s second and to finish the job cleanly, as if Yamanami had committed seppuku rather than being cut down. Souji obeys, and Yamanami is buried with honor. The event affects Souji deeply, though, causing him to drop his usual cheerful mask even in front of others, such as Yamanami’s mistress.

Between the Ikedaya incident, and Yamanami’s defection and death, a somewhat dreary mood falls on the Shinsengumi, and it is in such a mood that Matsumoto-sensei, doctor to both the shogunate and Shinsengumi alike finds them. He performs check-ups on all of the members, and it is here that it becomes clear that Souji’s earlier bouts of coughing were more than just a choking on tea, or caused by an external chest injury. While Matsumoto tells Souji that the coughing is nothing to worry about, he confides to Yamazaki that Souji has tuberculosis, and when he starts to cough up blood - something that had happened at Ikedaya - he will have roughly a year left to live. Souji alludes to knowing of his illness already, when he talks with Matsumoto after the check-up, saying ‘Even if I knew the truth, it’s not something that should be brought into the open.’

His poor health is brought into greater notice after this - during the following winter, Hijikata chastises him for being outside cooking in the cold, and he coughs a great deal more. At the same time, though, he is still well enough to help out with things around headquarters - like assisting Hijikata with his New Year’s cards, and discussing - albeit somewhat jokingly - teaching new students, when they get a fresh batch of shinsengumi recruits.

It’s a steady downward decline, however - when we next see him, Yamazaki is trying to keep him inside, despite his wishes to go spend time with the others and eat ‘bad’ food. He does manage to escape and spend some time in the open air, but Yamazaki wonders privately if he should inform the Commander and Vice-Commander how ill he’s become, despite the fact that telling them will change nothing.

ABILITIES: Souji’s only real special talents lie in the realm of martial arts. As one of the Shinsengumi, he is effectively a samurai, and was raised in the samurai tradition as well. His main skill is swordsmanship, and he excels at it. He is the best swordsman within the Shinsengumi - in a serious fight with the only other person who can come close to matching him there, it is said that the fight would end in death for both of them.

While he doesn’t use it often, he is also shown to have some skill in unarmed melee combat as well as his talents with a sword. For someone of his time period and status, martial arts training would have including work with the bo (quarterstaff), and jujutsu (unarmed combat), and at one point he also parries a katana strike with his foot, using his geta to catch the blade, before shoving the man who’s blade he caught against a wall with a mere flick of his wrist.
2012-08-05 05:50 pm
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So I am actually doing a bingo challenge! [profile] cottoncandy_bingo because I love me some fluff. This may all end up being Shatterstar/Rictor because they are my new favorite adorable of the moment >_>

Posting my card here so I don't lose it. )
2012-07-28 10:48 pm

Mindware - Beeminder

So, I started using Beeminder! I think I'm liking it, though I suspect I will find the graphs more satisfying when they have more data. So far I have two goals set up - Inbox Zero Five (AKA 'don't sit on your RP tags for four days straight, damnit), and ten minutes a day cleaning (I may up this to fifteen or twenty once I get into the habit of things. I have two more things I plan on adding relatively soon, though - a graph to track doing stretching exercises for my back, because I know they will help but I can't seem to get them into routine; and doing one patch a week for DW as part of my 'learn more code' drive. Though I'm willing to let style patches count for that.

Anyway, two things I learned about Beeminder so you don't have to:

1) If you are like me and like learning things by going in and poking at them, check the option to have the graph autodelete itself after a few days. Otherwise you have to manually delete all your data points to delete the graph you have probably set to the wrong parameters

2) If you can't get to your daily target the day you set your goal up (and day means 'before midnight', as they don't have custom day-ends programmed yet for those of us living mentally in other time zones *g*), either wait until a day you can do it or add a fake data point as an adjustment. Otherwise you'd have to do double your daily target the next day to make up for it.
2012-07-23 01:11 am
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Mindware

This kind of started with [tumblr.com profile] unfuckyourhabitat and discussions of how adding one small new habit to your routine makes it easier to add others, but it kind of solidified talking to [twitter.com profile] pjf at YAPC, who is a deeply fascinating individual - the discussion we had can kind of be summed up in his wonderful OSCON keynote, which is on youtube here. Basically, my life is kind of a mess. There are things I should do but don't want to do, and things I want to do that I don't end up doing, and basically my life-system is Not Working. This is for a number of reasons:

1) I'm a very poor self-motivator. This is probably at least partially because of depression, though I think a lot of people have problems self-motivating. Basically I obey Newton's First Law of physics, and this is why I didn't got to over half my classes in my last semester of university.

2) Related to (1) - I'm poor at commitment. And occasionally afraid of it, because I have a very high fear of failure (again, see depression plus anxiety), and if you don't commit, you can't fail. But I'm also fantastic at abandoning projects midway through because motivation dried up.

3) I have an awful case of what [profile] synecdochic calls 'goldfish brain' (this is one of several reasons the terrified goldfish is my spirit animal). Basically it's an exciting combination of distractability and short-term memory failure that leads me to do things like almost put the butter away in the cutlery drawer, lose everything I don't keep consistently in the same spot, and forget important things I need to do unless I do them right now.

So! It seemed best to make a list of what I want to do before I figure out ways in which to overcome 1-3 and actually do it.

Long-Term
-Get a job in my field
-Get PR status in Canada
-Own a house

Day-to-Day
-Keep the house clean
-Keep up with my RP commitments
-Cook a greater variety of lunches for work
-Not lose things all the time

Crafting
-Assorted planned knitting projects
-Assorted planned sewing projects
-Deal with the backlog of half-finished and abandoned projects
-Become reliable and skilled enough to make some extra income off my skills

CompSci
-Learn Perl
-Learn Python
-Get my cosplay website out of alpha

Languages
-Learn pronunciation for French, Mandarin, and Cantonese (No interest in the language, but I don't like sounding like an idiot in front of my friends)
-Brush up on my Spanish (I blame comic books)
-Learn Japanese
-Learn Welsh or Irish

This, then, leads to the 'how to do this' portion. The long-term goals are somewhat nebulous, and I need to refine the steps necessary to reach them before I can set that up on any sort of tracker. I've been using Astrid as a possible to-do manager, as it syncs web and my phone, and has a random reminders, which is good for someone who forgets things that need doing. I am, however, open to to-do list managers, as Astrid doesn't have an open API, so no hooking it into other things. So far, that's mostly been for day-to-day stuff/one-off tasks - I can add when I think of it, and come back to it later. The CS stuff - I think for Perl, working on DW bugs may be a good start. For my website, it's honestly just buckling down and writing the damned content. Languages - I have access to some online learning systems through the library, and Anki seems like a good way of reviewing.

The next problem - the big problem - is keeping to the commitments to do things, instead of 'eh, later'. Like the recycling in my trunk I've meant to take to the depot all week. 'I'll do it tomorrow.'. For that, I'm tentatively considering Beeminder. Putting money up for stake is kind of scary (see fear of commitment) but at the same time, money is one of the few things that is sufficiently motivating. Why I skipped classes but I don't skip work.

This, of course, is all very rough-draft right now, and input on what's worked for others is more than welcome.
2012-07-21 02:16 pm
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Life

I keep telling myself I should post more, but I have all these think-y thoughts that I'm having trouble coalescing into actual post form. And there's not much point in talking about real life because as anyone who follows my plurk knows it's like 60% 'I HATE MY JOB ARGH I NEED A NEW JOB LIFE SUCKS' which... well, it could be worse, but it could be a lot better too. But this job is $14/hr and has extended insurance so until something in my field actually calls me for an interview, I'm stuck with the frustrating job.

In between that, I have mostly been RPing and sewing. Current projects have been my steampunk outfits, which are coming along fairly well, and assorted bits and pieces of cosplay things. I did get my nice big order of four shades of purple dye for Tieria the other day, so drafting something out based on that may be my next project. I'm also kind of knitting again, though this means mostly picking at the Sock That Never Ends. I want to love sock knitting so much but it hasn't been working. Progress pics mostly get put on my plurk for the whole INSTANT GRATIFICATION thing but now that we have image hosting I may post here, too.

Design/dev-wise, I have totally managed to fall off my learn-to-code bandwagon. I think I'm having a problem where I'm sort of at an intermediate stage where a lot of the simple exercises that learn-to-code books/sites present bore me because they're too easy, but I'm still not ready to dive in DW's codebase because huge and very mature (or, as [profile] denise put it, 'our code base is old enough to have an account under COPA'). And I can't come up with a good intermediate project to do, which is what I need to learn.

I also haven't really had the creative energy for design - I think it's all being eaten by sewing right now. I did however dump some content into my cosplay site in hopes of motivating myself to finish it up, and I drafted up a layout design after about four hours of frustration:
cut for size, etc )
I'm not totally sold on the drop shadow effects - I'm not sure if they're too much or not. All the text will be actual text on the site, not graphics - I just wanted to add nav to the mock-up to see how it looked. The header image may also make a reappearance as a Heads Up theme :)
2012-06-27 12:43 am

Steampunk costuming

So I got my designs for Teslacon sketched up and scanned, which means of course I'm looking at them going 'AUGH ALL AWFUL' but I will post them anyway for outsider perspective because I know I can be hypercritical of my own work (and, well, these are sketches, and I am nooooot a 2D artist at all)

cut for embedded images~ )

2012-06-17 02:06 pm

Anime Central 2012 Photos

It only took me what, a month and a half to get them uploaded? I need to find a photo workflow manager I like for Linux that doesn't forcequit on me all the time :c Mostly select Getbackers, with some Gintama. Featuring me as Gintoki and Juubei, [profile] shingetsu as Takasugi and Kazuki, [plurk.com profile] arrshley as Sakamoto and Sakura, [profile] akatonbo as Toshiki, and [profile] pantswarrior as Makubex. Full gallery, which includes a lot more shenanigans, here.

Behind the cut because lots )

2012-05-22 06:30 pm
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Observation

I started documenting my cosplay stuff on Tumblr because of the ease of posting short posts and mixed media posts (text and pictures, for example). And then I started actually writing about costumes and costume-making and it basically turns into GIANT ESSAYS and then I think I am maybe missing the point of Tumblr.

(do I have a thousand-word draft of working with plastics saved to finish off at some point? Yes I do.)
2012-05-22 12:12 am

On Being A Grown-Up

You know you've reached some strange new pinnacle of adulthood when you are really proud of figuring out how to enter all of your accounts into GnuCash, and make plans to sync the accounts regularly (I'm thinking every payday, which is every two weeks for me).

You know it's up to you to decide what that means when you realize you should probably subdivide the 'Hobbies' account into 'Cosplay' and 'Merch' as this is pretty much everything you put in it. Also when you consider renaming 'Supplies' to 'Shit For the House' because that's what it's ended up being.
2012-05-20 11:30 pm

Further Technological Adventures

So, I have mentioned the previous misadventures of me and my media server. After much debate and discussion in #dw (I seriously ♥ you all for putting up with my annoying tech-support-ish questions, seriously), I came to the conclusion that the reason I've had a ton of boot issues is because my main, big drive on the machine was having problems spinning up adequately when the machine was started, which lead to it failing to various points in the boot cycle (depending how much it had spun up). Between that and SpinRite finding a bunch of sectors it couldn't fix, I decided these were signs that while the drive was not dead, it was probably on the road there, and that it would be better to replace it before it actually died.

So I went out and got a 3TB WD Caviar Green from NCIX, my local parts chain (on sale for $30 less than NewEgg had it before shipping, no less), and set about recovering files from the bad drive, reinstalling Xubuntu 12.04, and configuring all the drives to automount. There were a few hitches along the way, but the only unsolveable one is that it turns out my salvaged memory card reader is incompatible with Ubuntu versions after 9.10 or so, due to updates in how the kernel handles USB devices. So when I have some money, I think this thing finally deserves an IR reciever and remote, and a new memory card reader that's actually USB 2.0 compatible.

I also renamed the machine and all it's drives, as [profile] azurelunatic made me realize that naming a machine after a city that gets blown up is almost as inauspicious as naming devices after crazy villains (I named an mp3 player Sephiroth once. Bad idea). So my FF7 naming scheme has been laid to rest in favor of a Gundam 00 based one, because... nerd. So:

- Veda - my sleek little Alienware laptop (it has been Veda since I bought it, actually)
- Celestial Being - The media server
* Setsuna - boot, programs and docs drives (because he's the important one)
* Lockon - Games, comic scans, RPG books, misc Fun Stuff (because you know Lockon is the one with the most normal concept of 'fun')
* Tieria - the 3TB drive for video files (because Tieria is the master of GIANT GUNDAMS)
* Allelujah - music (...because it needed a drive. Sorry Alle, I really do love you anyway)

When I have some free time to dig into files, I'm going to try to make a skin for XBMC that looks like the Ptolemy's computer interfaces, I think.

Also, in the category of 'this might be a sign', I started up RhythmBox, imported my collection of roughly five thousand songs, put it on shuffle - and this is what I got first. Yes, Gundam 00 music. And this is what the desktop looks like when not cluttered with windows.
2012-05-19 11:55 am

A brief rant

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired with no explanation. I'm tired of the near-constant brainfog, of wanting to sleep twelve hours a night, of coming home from work and not having the energy to do anything but sit on the sofa and stare at the internet. None of this is new. This has been the last eight years of my life, with increasing severity.

What's new is that I've lost twenty-five pounds in a month and a half, without changing what I eat or how I exercise (in fact, I've been eating more). My fingernails have started breaking all the time. I sweat in my sleep.

I've had piles of tests done. I could give a laundry list of things that aren't wrong with me, because all of them have come back normal. And GPs just look at me and shrug and say things like 'it's probably stress' or 'you need to exercise more' and it's just... no. Something is wrong. And nobody knows what it is, or has the decency to straight-up say 'yeah, there's something wrong here but I can't tell you what' instead of making me feel like a paranoid hypochondriac, which, by the way, is a really shitty thing to do to someone with anxiety disorders.
2012-05-08 05:24 pm

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For [profile] pantswarrior's amusement, Ashley and I were discussing plotting plans for our Fuuga OT3 (Kazuki/Toshiki/Juubei):


Her: I also think that at some point, they should all have bathtime.
Me:..........does the Mirage have a hot tub?
Me: because if so they should take it over and fill it with bubble bath (LOL)
Her: lmfao
Her: yessssss


(and to everyone in general, I swear I really truly will have con photos uploaded this week. Once I reinstall the OS on my laptop. Yes, again. I probably could have fixed this one, but trying to swap from Ubuntu to Xubuntu without a clean wipe, after upgrading Ubuntu from 10.10 to 12.04 in one day, was making it's own share of problems, so I decided to just go clean.)
2012-04-24 05:39 pm
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We Are Now Experiencing Technical Difficulties

...Or, Adventures of a Human Fuzzer (because [profile] geekosaur suggested it and it sounds better than 'Guys, I Think I Have Gremlins')

So, anyone who hangs around me for a long enough time knows that I love technology. But sometimes I love technology too long, or too hard, and then technology fails to love me back. Which is a nice way of saying I am really good at breaking things through either clumsiness or aforementioned human fuzzer status. The last few weeks have been grand adventurse in new and exciting ways of breaking technology, which are best summed up as bulletpoints, because otherwise I'll be writing all day.

The Laptop
- Buy more RAM for the laptop, because 2GB isn't cutting it
- Decide, well, if I'm going to do more RAM, I should sit and wipe my Win7 install, too, because I never use it, and having my storage partitions split up is a pain
- Make USB boot key of PartedMagic! Get into it successfully! Hooray!
- ...delete the wrong NTFS partition: the storage instead of the Windows one
- realize that while it was mostly just a download dump, I had ALL my photos from the con on there (along with some nice photos I took in lab)
- spend roughly three hours trying to run partition recovery via Testdisk, guided by the very patient [profile] sophie
- Finally give up, accept that I have a better chance of running file recovery on the camera's memory card for the con photos, and that the rest is write-off
- Go to clean up the other partitions, because dual-booting Win7 means having really messed up boot set-ups because Windows Updater eats other bootloaders
- ACCIDENTALLY DELETE THE PARTITION WITH MY KERNEL ON IT
- Bang head against metaphorical wall and wail at the wonderful denizens of #dw for a short while
- Go to reinstall my root file system, being very thankful /home was on a separate partition
- ...Install 32-bit Ubuntu on 64-bit machine, causing it to only recognize 2.4GB of my nice shiny 4GB of RAM
- Facepalm
- Reinstall 64-bit OS and reconfig files.
- It is now six am.

The Tower
- Tower fails to boot. Again. (this is a fairly regular occurrence)
- Decide to actually play with boot settings instead of just reinstalling OS like I usually do.
- Get boot to work!
- Give in to the nag window to upgrade to 11.04, thinking 'it should be fine now, right?'
- Upgrade!
- Tower fails to boot again :| (this has happened every time I try 11.04 on any of my machines, I think it's cursed)
- Sigh, reinstall 10.10, decide I will work out why boot keeps failing on the main disk another night.

The Nook
- Fail to write the disk images needed to root the Nook repeatedly
- Disk image writer attempts to summon elder gods
- Fail some more.
- Finally succeed! Nook is rooted.

The Razr
- Get shiny new phone!
- Discover rooting shiny new phone is surprisingly easy!
- Gleefully start deleting Motorola and provider apps I don't need
- Discover the hard way that BlurEmailEngine.apk? Controls display text message notifs
- Oh, and BlurEmail.apk is necessary for contacts to works. Thanks, Motorola.
- Try factory reset. Accomplish nothing other than deleting all my apps.
- Attempt to reinstall system apps from other people's dumps. Fail.
- Attempt to install Brazilian stock ROM, because nobody bothers ripping the Canadian ones. Also fail.
- Give in, find replacement apps (to the good people behind the GO suite? I love you)

...and there has been some shenanigans with both my camera memory card and J's camera memory card, but file recovery ran okay and format worked, so those aren't worth writing up. And this is why I don't have con photos up yet.
2012-03-26 04:40 pm

Updates, what are those

...Things I forget about, obviously. I guess general status update - I have a job! It is basically a trained monkey job, but it's fulltime, and may have benefits (I started as a temp but am being switched to perm). It's also kind of a gongshow right now because it's a new facility so stuff isn't 100% online and they got kind of flooded with business, which in the long run is good but in the short run means I worked like a 44hour work week last week, and that was with finishing early on Friday.

April is con month! After a lot of waffling, I decided that yes I am going to Sakuracon, mostly to hang with [profile] inoru_no_hoshi and enjoy Seattle. Costume line-up:
-Gintoki (Gintama) for Friday
-Ukitake (Bleach), with Unohana and Kyoraku for Saturday (YAY old captain group)
-Hakkai (Saiyuki) for Saturday night and Sunday. Maybe, idk.

And then ACen at the end of the month which I am SUPER EXCITE about:
-Gintoki (Gintama)
-Juubei (Getbackers)
-Hakkai (Saiyuki)

OTHER THAN THAT, I have been cleaning more, which is good, and have a terrible headcold right now, which is bad. I called in sick to work for basically the first time ever because I woke up at seven this morning with a fever and a headache that's been there since Friday. I feel kind of guilty but on the other hand fuck, I couldn't handle an 8+ hour day of lifting and walking and LOTS OF NOISE like this. So I'm going to hide in my house with tea and maybe cook some. Home remedies for terrible headcolds with bonus sore throats appreciated, this is an awful feeling :|
2012-02-19 09:24 pm

That Thing I've Been Working On....

So I think at this point all of the regulars in #DW have been hearing about my (mis)adventures with Drupal and PHP. Basically, after many years of waffling around I am finally building a cosplay website, and because apparently my mindset is 'go big or go home', I've been designing it to be multi-user scalable.

Because I am only one person and cannot remember what I want half the time until the exact moment I want it, I would love some feedback on what it could use. I should also note my intent was to make it a cosplay site, ie, mostly geared at people doing media recreation costuming, but I think most of the functionality works for other types? But I may have to try and classify by things other than just character and series.

This is the site!
What's still on my to-do list:
-being able to add links to accounts on other sites to user profiles DONE! (current list is dA, DW, LJ, Twitter, Tumblr, Plurk, and ACP; other input welcome)
-Add good search functionality. I've got some modules for it, but I'm still working on the set-up.
-Making the links to a given user's content easy to find on their user profile (costumes and tutorials are in the sidebar, but they're hard to find with the nav links there)
-Styling.

Specific feedback I'd love would be on whether the fields provided for tutorials/costumes/profiles are adequate, what other sites people would like, and... well, anything else you can think of.